Angel Dog takes a snooze

I'm not really sure when I started leting dogs sleep on my furniture. One day I just noticed how cute Pete looked all curled up inthat chair so I took a picture. Seems like they have just always been there.

blue

Its a blue day
for a blue tree
not worth ferreting out the reason
it just is
I like the blues
I where them well
such camaraderie
I have with the blues

A child said, What is the grass?
by Walt Whitman
A child said, What is the grass? fetching it to me with full
hands;
How could I answer the child?. . . .I do not know what it
is any more than he.
I guess it must be the flag of my disposition, out of hopeful
green stuff woven.
Or I guess it is the handkerchief of the Lord,
A scented gift and remembrancer designedly dropped,
Bearing the owner's name someway in the corners, that we
may see and remark, and say Whose?
Or I guess the grass is itself a child. . . .the produced babe
of the vegetation.
Or I guess it is a uniform hieroglyphic,
And it means, Sprouting alike in broad zones and narrow
zones,
Growing among black folks as among white,
Kanuck, Tuckahoe, Congressman, Cuff, I give them the
same, I receive them the same.
And now it seems to me the beautiful uncut hair of graves.
Tenderly will I use you curling grass,
It may be you transpire from the breasts of young men,
It may be if I had known them I would have loved them;
It may be you are from old people and from women, and
from offspring taken soon out of their mother's laps,
And here you are the mother's laps.
This grass is very dark to be from the white heads of old
mothers,
Darker than the colorless beards of old men,
Dark to come from under the faint red roofs of mouths.
O I perceive after all so many uttering tongues!
And I perceive they do not come from the roofs of mouths
for nothing.
I wish I could translate the hints about the dead young men
and women,
And the hints about old men and mothers, and the offspring
taken soon out of their laps.
What do you think has become of the young and old men?
What do you think has become of the women and
children?
They are alive and well somewhere;
The smallest sprouts show there is really no death,
And if ever there was it led forward life, and does not wait
at the end to arrest it,
And ceased the moment life appeared.
All goes onward and outward. . . .and nothing collapses,
And to die is different from what any one supposed, and
luckier.

out of left field

happy

I'm filled with joy
when the day dawns quietly
over the roof of the sky.

Life was wonderful
in winter.
But did winter make me happy?
No, I always worried
about hides for boot-soles
and for boots;
and if there'd be enough
for all of us.
Yes, I worried constantly.

Life was wonderful
in summer.
but did summer make me happy?
No, I always worried
about reindeer skins and rugs for the platform.
Yes, I worried constantly.

Life was wonderful
when you stood at your fishing-hole
on the ice.
But was I happy waiting at my fishing hole?

No, I was always worried
for my little hook,
in case it never got a bite.
Yes, I worried constantly.

Life was wonderful
when you danced in the feasting-house.
But did this make me any happeir?
No, I always worried
I'd forget my song.
Yes, I worried constantly.

Life was wonderful...
And I still feel joy
each time the day-break
whitens the dark-break
whitens the dark sky
each
time the sun
climbs over the roof of the sky.

ESKIMO SONG

more of my cactus garden

The Dalai Lama says " Children who have grown up lacking a positive atmosphere usually have more negative attitudes. This very clearly shows the basic human nature. Also, as I have mentioned, the human body appreciates peace of mind. Things that are disturbing to us have a very bad effect upon our health. This shows that the whole stucture of our health is such that it is suited to an atmosphere of human affection. Therefore , our potential for compassion is there. The only issue is whether or not we realize this and utilize it."

I think of the 18 year old girl who was stabbed 50 times by her drugged out boyfriend who then OD'ed on pills and is in a coma. Did he grow up lacking a positive atmosphere? Was he only looking for peace of mind? I think of the daugher I put up for adoption at birth and now that she was in a much more positive situation then the one I was able to provide for her. Having met her a number of years ago I know that to be a fact.

In the years of her childhood I was much to self-absorbed to being devoted to a beautiful daughter. And how lucky is that child for had I been just a little less self-absorbed I my have been deluded enough to believe I could raise my child in an atmosphere of self delusion. I had very little potential compassion. I had affection mixed up with sex. In my attempt of being a part of the big picture I had chosen the counter culture movment and ended up just being, with my predispostion toward addiction , an angry, violent, person incapable of loving or being loved.

Today I try hard to have commpassion for that boy in a comma, that robbed the little girl and her family of the chance to experience life without drugs. They say the cholla cactus shoots its stickers at people how walk by. But the truth is one actually has to reach out and touch them before they burrow into the skin. And they are aluring. They look soft and touchable. An understanding of this is nessasary and important to not get hooked. And a desire to not be hooked ; commpassion for ones self?

A bit pricckly these days

So what else but another cactus. I guess have to wait for the the frosty leaves for next year or maybe I'll search out some of last years fotos and rework them with all this new found time I have. The Doc said stay home at least until after December.

There are days when it is such a relief to not get up and I can't even imagine how I ever got anything done and then their are days that I feel soooo....???? guilty !!!! that I'm not out there busting my butt for at almighty dollar.

And now I'm among the ranks of the poor. 23 years ago when I first realized I was able to not only support myself I also had $ to spend. At first I felt ashamed that I had so much more than so many people in the world. My dear friend Crystal ( who I admired as being a socially concerned person, always working on a cause), said if you have any money left over after taxes you can donate it someware. I will help you.

Well..... I've donated a lot of time to the cause du juor but there never seems to be any money left over. And now there is just no money. ooooooo such a spoiled girl I have been. well heres the cactus of hope I hope.

Mona Lisa Pete

when all the tomarrows start wishing for yesterdays

The new important number in my life is my MELD score; just thirteen, but with the alpha fetoprotein floating around in my own personal solar system I just might make the transplant list a little sooner.

I don't know if it is good or bad, it just is. And its really gonna be the adventure of my life. The rest of them were just practice for the next chunk and it’s all unfolding exactly the way it is unfolding.

Tomorrow I think I'm going to Flagstaff and take pictures of the leaves turning; the aspen quaking and what have you.

Lost Dog finds way home

You read about it in the gossip rags at the check-out in the grocery store novels are written about them but dogs that find their way home always seemed like maybe a little stretch of the truth. I've found lost dogs... mine and others. In fact Pete is a found dog (found by me) that never found the people that lost (abandoned?) him. He was just a little quivering mass of bones, fur and fear facing a close brush with becoming road pizza a few blocks from my house. I brought him home to keep him safe until his people came to claim him. And he's never left. After losing my ever so precious Dog of Dogs it just seemed to make sense that Sweet Pete should stick around. http://thefirstchakra.blogspot.com/2006/04/my-dog-pete.html

So you can imagine how I felt yesterday when I lost him while I was at the Tire place and Petes leash got caught in a metal chair and he got freaked out and metal chair and all headed straight for the busiest intersection in the area, a junction of to major highways. He finally slipped his collar and seem to vanish into thin air at Taco Bell.

I searched from 3pm till 9:30pm and was up searching again at 6am. I called the Animal Control, Humaine Society, Police, radio stations and posted flyers. I talked with anyone in the area that would listen, Enlisted the help of my boyfriend, my girlfriend and her boyfriend.....

And he showed up this morning around 8:30 am hungry, tired, and full of burrs. Three miles (or maybe more depending on the route) he showed up at my front door. What a guy.

the big picture

more cactus

these guys must be aliens of some sort. From pluto the rock no doubt.

Well it must be the end of the garden scene here in AZ. Or at least it is at our house as Porky Pete broke in and ate all the veggies……. Accept for the zucchini. Guess he isn’t a fan. He even ate the peppers. And then his partner in crime aka Large Luther went in and pillaged rooted and took a Mastive size dump. Next year we will have a stronger defense system.

healthy wealthy wise or just a stringen' fool

Root Chakra - BLACK OBSIDIAN: Helps integrate the mind with the emotions and anchors spiritual energy onto the physical plane; absorbs and dissolves negative energy; prevents emotional draining from others; reduces stress, helps soothe during times of transition; beneficially influences stomach, colon, and womb.

Spleen Chakra - AMBER: Has a positive influence on the hormones, spleen and heart; promotes healing and purification of the digestive tract; absorbs negative energy, helps you to ground to Earth, and provides protection for sensitive people; blends and balances the higher intellect with spirituality

Solar Plexus Chakra – PERIDOT: Has healthy impact upon heart, adrenals, pancreas, and liver; purifies your body; heightens intuition; decreases tension, speeds up personal growth stimulates mental capabilities, and opens heart and mind to new opportunities; soothes and releases old hurts and resentments.

Heart Chakra - TOURMALINE (RED-PINK): Enhances ability to effectively handle life’s challenges and meet new ones with courage, optimism, grace, and ease; helps you let go of grief, guilt, ,and anxiety; inspires acts of compassion, devotion , service, and creativity.

Throat Chakra - AQUAMARINE: Calms nervous tension, reduces retention of body fluids and helps with digestion; increases clarity and facilitates creative self-expression; helps drive away fears and anxiety; soothes and calms, wonderful stone to use with meditation; creates balance on all levels – physical, emotional, and mental.

Third Eye Chakra - LAPIS LAZULI: Reduces tension and anxiety; revitalizes and opens your throat chakra; increases strength and vitality; facilitates mental awareness and clear headedness; enhances psychic abilities and communication with your Higher Self.

Crown Chakra – AMETHYST: Energizes and purifies the blood system, and relieves mental confusion; cleanses and renews all levels of consciousness; dissolves illusion, enhances intuition, encourages deep meditation and transformation; helps protect from negative influences; increases ability to heal and experience Divine love.

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...a little less time

So many pictures...so little time

mineral meltdown

something to laugh about

This was the funniest dog that ever lived. He walked around with this stuff on although the hat fell off he acted like the googles and vest were just something that were now a part of his deal.

Chewy the Entertainer

mon·soon ( P ) Pronunciation Key (mn-sn)
n.

1. A wind system that influences large climatic regions and reverses direction seasonally.